It wasn't until I was nineteen years old that I realized, I tried to live my life as though I was the main character. And in a way, we all are the main characters of our own stories. What I mean is that our stories are of our own choosing but it has to coincide with the life we already live in.
I definitely wouldn't say I was a sheltered child, I've always kept a clean balance between book smarts and street smarts but, to be honest, everything changed when it was time for me to go off to college. I couldn't continue going to school. Financial Issues, normal stuff. My dream of being a writer because of the books I fell in love with when I was young soon became a distant memory.
Before leaving the college I chose, I tried my hardest to stay. I always learned through books, that anything is possible. And it is, it just wasn't the right time, the right path for me. But as an eighteen-year-old, telling me that something wasn't going to happen for me hurt a lot. I was a girl who grew up being able to do anything I set my mind to. My failure to continue to go to school began to define me. My motivation to a dive for the worse, I fell into a deep hole of darkness because I truly felt like doing nothing but sulk.
It took me a year to finally pick up a book again after that. Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil, a book I read back when I was a little bratty middle schooler. This book helped remind me of what I have, what I can still do, where I can still go.
From there I tried to write, I tried to enter short story contests, I aimed to become the best writer I could be. Become the heroine of my own story, make it big in a short time and share my story with the world. Well, I'm here to tell you that it didn't happen that way. Just like Percy Jackson (Percy Jackson and the Olympians) I was on an adventure but unlike him, the mind was also to a constant dead-end. I was my own worse critic, never thought my writing was good enough.
I truly became frustrated, I had learned what I wanted long before so why wasn't I able to do it? It took me about four years after that to come to an understanding with myself that in order for me to become the best writer I can possibly be, I have to be the best reader. Above all, I realized that marketing books, sharing the fun of reading books, that's what I liked just as much as I did writing.
My path isn't finished, I hope that sharing this blog post would shed some light that nothing is easy but that there is always a way to make your dreams come true. It just takes time, persistence, and an endless amount of books!